Self Care - MY JOURNEY TO HAPPINESS

Hello, my name is Ubah. This is my first written post on my blog, and this is the first step towards me pursuing a career or hobby as a blogger. The title of this post is "Self care - My journey to happiness" and today i'll be discussing something really important in my life... my mental health. 

I know when you hear the phrase "mental health" there is a stigma attached to it. I know that because I have that same thought whenever someone says that phrase to me. I think that more than ever, my life has become very stressful. Stressful because of the pressure I put on myself at school, with friends or in my "career". I look at people's lives on social media and imagine that for myself...having thousands of online followers, wearing the latest luxury designer clothing and even travelling to beautiful places. 

I'm ungrateful. I constantly want something and think I don't have enough. I feel that my life is not what I want it to be, and somehow by complaining, something is going to magically change. I need to change. I am changing. I think that although I am very aware of the politics and social climates around me, I still tend to separate myself from those in harsh positions. I am aware of people with no food to eat, no roof over their heads and no families. I am aware of the injustice of countries only hours away on flight, but still think my life could be better. Why is that? 

Happiness should come from a place of humbleness. It should come from a place of honesty and self acceptance. I make myself sad when I think about the instagram models or rich people that seem to have everything. I HAVE everything. Most of us have everything we need. I have the luxury to get post-secondary education....IN A FIELD I'M PASSIONATE ABOUT, I have both my parents, I have my health and I live in Canada. Wow. Even writing this down gives me mixed emotions because I say all of these wonderful things I have and I can still find something to cry about.

Comparison is MY thief of joy. I have compared myself to other people since I was a kid. I can't help it...it's one of the things I really want to change about myself. It is a flaw, it is destructive and it is stupid. Don't get me wrong,  I am still confident and people around me certainly think that of me. But when I lay down on my bed, and look through social media before I sleep... that little voice in my head wakes up. 

"Take time to do what makes your soul happy". I saw this image when I Googled "Self Care" and really thought it was beautiful. We don't spend enough time healing our souls and taking care of our spirit. I want to start taking care of my soul better. I need to. I've spent way too many nights crying for no reason and I'm tired of it. 2018 is going to be the year I practice self care and I couldn't be more happy to say that. I am a happy person 90% of the time....it's just that little bit needs some work, that's all.